sickening holidays
Argh!! Frustrating and i feel like venting all this rage inside me on something!! I juz simply hate holidays!!! yes HATE!! especially holidays that do not seem like holidays!!!
The past 3 weeks went by and i achieved nothing at all!! I just hate this feeling in me. I agree it feels so good to have holidays cos u can have fun, go out and so on but when u have to go back to school a few days a week and having this freaking pile of homework that dont seem to finish it juz dun feel right.
I feel good when i am having fun but when i m at home, no outings, no nothing, it juz feels so lonely and this stupid feeling of gulity of not doing homework comes up. However, once u touch the paper or see that darn question, u dun feel like doing anymore.Why? cos i need companion when i do work at times, at least i can ask when i dunno compared to my parents who juz say they dunno everytime i ask.
Its this contradictory feeling in me that i hate so much! 3 and a half weeks gone i have no progress in work, i m stoning at home when there is no training and i dunno how to carry on this holiday when my schedule gets busy in doing CIP stuffs.
Ok think i should stop complaining in here. Anyway no one in this world like to hear complains especially my complains and no one visits here anyway!
Gosh!! i haven been updating for more than a week!! Yeah, many things happened the past week. WELL the main highlight of the past week was OP!!!
OP is finally over!! YES!! and my group actually did better than our own practices.. felt so good after the OP. And thx a lot to Puay Bing, our group managed to surprise the audience and yes including the examiners with our little blank presentation where we made some big woo-ha to start of the presentation... Somehow the introduction i did was totally tough. Y? there are some parts tt i have to be thicked skinned to say certain things to "boast" about myself.. Not really my style. But yea, we did well as a group.
After OP a few of us went for some ice-cream at daily scoop.. Its sorta my first time going into an ice-cream shop juz to sit down and eat ice-cream.. Not bad.. and i can say the ice-cream was fantastic..
Training somehow went by as usual.. somehow i seem to be getting bored of training.. cos i kept asking myself why do i have to go for training at times.. I wanna learn new things or train but it seems that i am not doing these two but only to appear at trainings juz to guide those two. Well gotta improvise and change the training a bit so that it can be more interesting while still able to have every1 to learn something.
I also broke record last week by going for pool sessions 2 times a week.. it seems that i m going to go bankrupt juz by playing pool.. gotta find something better to do.
I started the most hated holiday homework too... It juz dont really feel right to do hw especially when its holiday and i am all alone studyin on my own... at least i need some company. haiz...
OH YAR!! i tried applying for SSC lifeguard at Jurong East Swimming complex last week. Only to find out tt they dont accept ppl below 18 when i went down to fill in the application form... REALLY SUCK!!!! its like 1 more mth away from my 18 yr!!!!
this entry is sorta too long but i dont care whether any1 reads it cos not many ppl visit too.. haiz... well going to change the skin again... think i found a more suitable 1.
Emotion
Well another week that is going to be over soon. This first week of holiday seem so wasted due to me pure laziness. I have been slacking and playing com tts all, though i do some occasional studying and homework.
There wasnt any post for a week cos there seemed to be nothing much to blog about. The week went by with chinese lessons and training since monday, nothing much really happened except tt i went on an emotional roller coaster due to some personal reasons. Well tmr is chinese A lvls. Here i wanna wish all out there taking chinese tmr all da best (since some dun believe in luck) and i also wanna say the same to those J2s taking their A lvls. Yes its their homerun now, hope they get what they wished to get for their results and in a year's time it will be my turn.
Well nothing else to say, gotta go re- read chinese again. Gotta do well and not throw face if u noe wad i mean.
