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9:28 AM

This has been an issue that sets my mind to go to and fro in deciding which is the reason that I have not been doing well in a lot of things.

I simply do not believe that I am not good enough, yet, after putting in so much effort, I still simply could not achieve the desired. Now it comes down to effort. is it insufficient?

I looked back, many say I have been juggling too many things to fully concentrate. Again, it is quite true but I have since juggle lesser things and put lesser strain on my emotional and physical aspects so as to have better concentration in the things i do.

I gave my 100% in everything i do. However is it sufficient? Maybe it is still not enough.

Probably all these pondering and emotional strain is quite unnecessary but one has to look back to see errors to correct them right? This time round I simply cannot find the answer. Maybe I am just not good enough.

Or maybe its just both...

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9:26 AM

Well today was mainly about my relatives visiting my place in the day time and dinner at my aunt's. A random thought from one of my uncles sent us digging out the old photo albums from the hidden and less accessed corners of our house.

Finding them were a misery but opening up and looking through them brought us much laughter and fun. Especially when we see the pictures of us being young and that includes my uncle and my dad when they r kids.. (so u can see how ancient some of these albums are.. they can really tell a life story)

Well, I am here to share some of the pictures i took of the pictures (ok that sound stupid but i lazy to use scanner). Here goes:

This is my 1st month photo i think..

Me and my elephant.. The elephant is still around surprisingly. And it is holding a clock in my sister's room now.. haha..

me and my sis on the old bed at the old house.. haha..

These pictures really bring back memories. It has been really years since I saw them. Could really see the difference between then and now(i look damn chubby and dai dai then). Looking at all these photos made the feeling of being unwilling to grow up worse. Those were the days where all I care about was my toys, my meals and probably some of my school work. How fun is that?

Really great fun looking at all these again. The good old days like what many would say.

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11:54 PM

Here we are again.. 6 mths on since the last post.. lol..

Like this 2 of them.. they are the children of one of my distant uncle(my mom's cousin). It was nt long ago that I was carrying them in my arms as small little newborns. Now look, they are already going primary 1. How fast is that?

Pondering about this makes me feel so much that I really do not want to grow up. I really just want to stay in my teen years having fun and prob being the juvenile delinquent that I was (ok, i wasnt so beng and bad then but tts the life i miss then).

Obviously, during this period, other than the usual ang baos we will get, we also have our usual fun with the cards.

Yeps, fun is fun... it wasnt really tt fun when you realised that you have lost quite a bit even with small bets are involved. This is the second consecutive year that I have lost. total 20 i think. sucks. haha.. oh wells, all in the name of fun in new year. take it as a treat to the rest of the big family.. haha..

well, dinner time was again steamboat.

As one can see. its a small kitchen.. and somehow everyone just squeezed together and sorta 'fight' for the food. haha. Food never tasted tt good without some "fighting" over them i guess..

Well.. This is it for my CNY day 1 that i spend mostly at my aunt's place. Having some sort of a gathering and great fun. (this sort of brings me to remember that i got work pilling up uncleared). I do wonder when will be the next post..

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10:28 PM