Drained
1 weekend more then my papers on 7 may.. which is also polling day. And this is the first time i m going to vote for the future of my nation.. exciting and yet it feels sucky as my first paper falls on the same day and i have to spend lesser time on my books.
speaking of books, piles of books and notes are stacking up in my room. maybe cos i haven been spending enough time learning bout my modules and spending time on things like trainings and juz managing tutorials. I guess i do gained from much of the character development portion in helping to train the team but again what is my priority?
I have been asking many times why am i in this. I felt very drained in recent months. I need to set my priorities right i guess. I love lifesaving sport and i love coaching but i hate the admin processes and sometimes dealing people problem.The amount of time and effort spent was just not worth it when my main priority is studies and i m screwing that up becos of this.Liddat might as well pay me as a full time coach. I can do the same job outside with lesser problems n money to earn. At least i know i should be passing on this job to someone else instead. I guess i should help from the background, no strings attached and no other responsibilities to the committee-free as i can be to do whatever i need.
Studying has not been really smooth. I realised that i still have tons to things to make sure i understand fully and to get myself to do things faster like to draw and think faster at the same time. It seems engineering in this sem is to be fast in problem solving and fast in drawing things in great detail.. or at least it seemed to me.
Its just very demoralising when a paper meant for 2.5 hrs and i m spending 4 to 5 hrs to juz manage to finish one by looking at answers. That only goes to show i have not prepared enough. On the bright side, at least i know wad i m missing out. The last few days of revision has been too draining. Guess i m not used to studying for super long hrs ( my case of super long hrs is >7 non stop with prob some small breaks of max 10-15mins). My brain juz felt fried now.. i could not solve another problem. I have been waking at 7plus, have breakfast and staring work rd 830 then all the way till lunch at 12 plus then all the way till 5 plus where i m almost zonked then dinner and it repeats till 1am.
I just cant take it for today. That's y i m juz complaining here.. so much for perseverance.. I guess i m juz too tired mentally to carry on.. and things such as EID and competition registration is still bothering me. It is seriously frustrating. Oh wells, maybe an early night will do me some good.
Exams nearing
Quite a bit has happened in the period from the last post till now.. Life have been too busy. I was busy with school work generally but I had my fair share of fun.
After CNY, I went for NTU bike rally, Surf and Sweat. 2 big events by NTU sports club.
Surf And Sweat
Bike Rally Finishers
There was also a friendly with RP and ACJC last weekend as well.
Other than these, projects have been taking its toll on me. EID, a real pain in the ass with little AUs to account for the amount of time and hard work placed in it.
So much has happened. Its time to settle down to study. Exams are less than a month away, to be exact its 3 weeks to go. I am screwed. I need to work extra hard for now even though I can feel the tiredness setting in.
I am losing drive, somehow, I need to pick up.
