killerangel46

We are all humans

2011-06-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

We are all humans, subjected to emotions, good behavior, negative behavior so on. Things happened recently has made me realised much more about human nature. Greed is something i thought about.

Greed, the desire for more (the simplest way of explaining it). Everyone is greedy in their own ways, greedy for more food, more money, better grades, better treatment so on. We expect something, we get it, we expect more. Its normal, though there are those who are contented with what they have. Greed, could spur one on to do far greater things one would have thought be it negative or positive. I guess my greed for emotions and happiness could be one example. I have gained a bit and i expected more. This tips the balance of things.

Selfishness is another thing that I have been thinking through. Everyone will be selfish in someways in order to preserve themselves or preserve the thing they want to preserve (somehow ultimately there will be benefits to oneself) (well this thinking can be rather extreme). In any case, there is always a want factor on your side in getting the things done in a certain way be it to a large or small extent. You may seek to want to maintain a friendship and not wanting to hurt someone but in doing so have some degree of selfishness. It does not mean selfishness is wrong, it may be for the better good. Yet again, many fail to realise in their act of goodwill or in their want to preserve something, there will definitely be losses somewhere and the extent have to be considered. I guess I have been selfish in wanting my ways even though you have declined; even though you have other intentions. In my act of selfishness, or your act of selfishness, each party will suffer some loss and most of the time emotionally. Again, its about balance, no absolute right and no absolute wrong.

Many have mentioned this before: "Sometimes, we do not choose white or choose black for they are the extremes.Sometimes, being in the grey is the best for that is where Earth is." This statement is very true in many context for the world is made of things that talks about balance rather than the extremes. However, there are cases where extremes have to be used with limits ( like a managed float system) when the balance of things is tipped. In the case of relationships, this is very much the case. Things become complicated due to the compounded effect of greed and selfishness. Extremes have to be used to give clear answers to ensure that the blur becomes clear, the knots become loosened or cut.

Either way, the take away from this is to know one's place and action so as to do things at the right time and place. Balance of action doesn't mean one avoids using the extremes.

I m trying

2011-05-03T20:54:00.001+08:00

I am trying.. but things do not always seem to be how i want it to be...

hoping to see you in a month's time:)

Drained

2011-04-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

1 weekend more then my papers on 7 may.. which is also polling day. And this is the first time i m going to vote for the future of my nation.. exciting and yet it feels sucky as my first paper falls on the same day and i have to spend lesser time on my books.

speaking of books, piles of books and notes are stacking up in my room. maybe cos i haven been spending enough time learning bout my modules and spending time on things like trainings and juz managing tutorials. I guess i do gained from much of the character development portion in helping to train the team but again what is my priority?

I have been asking many times why am i in this. I felt very drained in recent months. I need to set my priorities right i guess. I love lifesaving sport and i love coaching but i hate the admin processes and sometimes dealing people problem.The amount of time and effort spent was just not worth it when my main priority is studies and i m screwing that up becos of this.Liddat might as well pay me as a full time coach. I can do the same job outside with lesser problems n money to earn. At least i know i should be passing on this job to someone else instead. I guess i should help from the background, no strings attached and no other responsibilities to the committee-free as i can be to do whatever i need.

Studying has not been really smooth. I realised that i still have tons to things to make sure i understand fully and to get myself to do things faster like to draw and think faster at the same time. It seems engineering in this sem is to be fast in problem solving and fast in drawing things in great detail.. or at least it seemed to me.

Its just very demoralising when a paper meant for 2.5 hrs and i m spending 4 to 5 hrs to juz manage to finish one by looking at answers. That only goes to show i have not prepared enough. On the bright side, at least i know wad i m missing out. The last few days of revision has been too draining. Guess i m not used to studying for super long hrs ( my case of super long hrs is >7 non stop with prob some small breaks of max 10-15mins). My brain juz felt fried now.. i could not solve another problem. I have been waking at 7plus, have breakfast and staring work rd 830 then all the way till lunch at 12 plus then all the way till 5 plus where i m almost zonked then dinner and it repeats till 1am.

I just cant take it for today. That's y i m juz complaining here.. so much for perseverance.. I guess i m juz too tired mentally to carry on.. and things such as EID and competition registration is still bothering me. It is seriously frustrating. Oh wells, maybe an early night will do me some good.

Exams nearing

2011-04-10T23:20:00.006+08:00

Quite a bit has happened in the period from the last post till now.. Life have been too busy. I was busy with school work generally but I had my fair share of fun.

After CNY, I went for NTU bike rally, Surf and Sweat. 2 big events by NTU sports club.

Surf And Sweat

Bike Rally Finishers

There was also a friendly with RP and ACJC last weekend as well.

Other than these, projects have been taking its toll on me. EID, a real pain in the ass with little AUs to account for the amount of time and hard work placed in it.

So much has happened. Its time to settle down to study. Exams are less than a month away, to be exact its 3 weeks to go. I am screwed. I need to work extra hard for now even though I can feel the tiredness setting in.

I am losing drive, somehow, I need to pick up.

Songs

2011-02-22T09:28:00.001+08:00

Effort =/= Result

2011-02-09T09:26:00.003+08:00

Somehow, for a while this thing has been boggling my mind. Is it insufficient effort or is it that I am just not good enough?

This has been an issue that sets my mind to go to and fro in deciding which is the reason that I have not been doing well in a lot of things.

I simply do not believe that I am not good enough, yet, after putting in so much effort, I still simply could not achieve the desired. Now it comes down to effort. is it insufficient?

I looked back, many say I have been juggling too many things to fully concentrate. Again, it is quite true but I have since juggle lesser things and put lesser strain on my emotional and physical aspects so as to have better concentration in the things i do.

I gave my 100% in everything i do. However is it sufficient? Maybe it is still not enough.

Probably all these pondering and emotional strain is quite unnecessary but one has to look back to see errors to correct them right? This time round I simply cannot find the answer. Maybe I am just not good enough.

Or maybe its just both...

CNY day 2 of 2011

2011-02-04T23:54:00.005+08:00

It is the end of day 2 of CNY..

Well today was mainly about my relatives visiting my place in the day time and dinner at my aunt's. A random thought from one of my uncles sent us digging out the old photo albums from the hidden and less accessed corners of our house.

Finding them were a misery but opening up and looking through them brought us much laughter and fun. Especially when we see the pictures of us being young and that includes my uncle and my dad when they r kids.. (so u can see how ancient some of these albums are.. they can really tell a life story)

Well, I am here to share some of the pictures i took of the pictures (ok that sound stupid but i lazy to use scanner). Here goes:

This is my 1st month photo i think..

Me and my elephant.. The elephant is still around surprisingly. And it is holding a clock in my sister's room now.. haha..

me and my sis on the old bed at the old house.. haha..

These pictures really bring back memories. It has been really years since I saw them. Could really see the difference between then and now(i look damn chubby and dai dai then). Looking at all these photos made the feeling of being unwilling to grow up worse. Those were the days where all I care about was my toys, my meals and probably some of my school work. How fun is that?

Really great fun looking at all these again. The good old days like what many would say.

CNY 2011

2011-02-03T22:28:00.008+08:00

Here we are again.. 6 mths on since the last post.. lol..

Its Chinese New Year again.. haha.. its the year of the wabbit (rabbit).. like to call tt cos it sounds rather amusing..

Its been the same old process of visiting the temple in the morn, then to my uncle's place then to my maternal grandma's place and so on.. Nth new i would say but this is the very day you sort of see relatives once a year.

Like this 2 of them.. they are the children of one of my distant uncle(my mom's cousin). It was nt long ago that I was carrying them in my arms as small little newborns. Now look, they are already going primary 1. How fast is that?

Pondering about this makes me feel so much that I really do not want to grow up. I really just want to stay in my teen years having fun and prob being the juvenile delinquent that I was (ok, i wasnt so beng and bad then but tts the life i miss then).

Obviously, during this period, other than the usual ang baos we will get, we also have our usual fun with the cards.

Yeps, fun is fun... it wasnt really tt fun when you realised that you have lost quite a bit even with small bets are involved. This is the second consecutive year that I have lost. total 20 i think. sucks. haha.. oh wells, all in the name of fun in new year. take it as a treat to the rest of the big family.. haha..

well, dinner time was again steamboat.

As one can see. its a small kitchen.. and somehow everyone just squeezed together and sorta 'fight' for the food. haha. Food never tasted tt good without some "fighting" over them i guess..

Well.. This is it for my CNY day 1 that i spend mostly at my aunt's place. Having some sort of a gathering and great fun. (this sort of brings me to remember that i got work pilling up uncleared). I do wonder when will be the next post..

Lifeguards Chalet.

2010-07-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

Life has been rather busy i would say. Busier as can be. I guess what they always say is true that the only easy day was yesterday.

Work work work then training and training. It really does take some strain on me. I am living off a 6hr max slp day and this is seriously unhealthy. Somehow I have to find more time to rest and sleep properly.

Much has went by and yesterday was NTU's annual lifeguard retreat. It was the usual BBQ and stuff at downtown east with booze and stuff. Though it sounds boring, somehow, I still find it rather nostalgic to stay over in a chalet again with friends. It feels like its really been ages since u stay over in a chalet with a bunch of people.

Spent most of the early part of the night helping to cook and obviously eat. The later part of the remaining night was spent tending those drunk. hahahha.. I was having some chat and discussion in the room. By the time we went down, Alex and the rest had alrdy downed the whole bottle .

These buggers end up drunk and vomitting. Mark was the worst. He spend more than 3 hrs, sitting in the room after that, and having numerous occasions where he vomitted. We ended up, helping to clean up time aft time and laughing off all the funny crap that these drunk guys are doing.

Lesson to be learnt: DO NOT GET DRUNK. hahha.. somehow, I am thankful I went down late and didnt end up like them. I would find it torturous to vomit like them and a waste of money to take those alcohol and ended up vomiting them all out..

Come back home this morning and afternoon, i was out again. I went for the Nationals team managers meeting and after that, I went on to meet adrian and some of the blk A ppl for the movie, Inception.

The movie had really a great storyline about entering one's mind through dreams. It can be rather confusing at times but somehow, one can feel the distortion btw dreams and reality. Really nice idea that was explored for movie and the idea is indeed very fresh.

Well, enough said. I m dead beat. Guess its time to turn in..

NUS Invitationals, Skypark Visit

2010-06-27T00:50:00.004+08:00

ok, i like to say time flies all the time.. feel like saying it cos it does. well, its been a while since I last post anything and much have obviously happened. One of the main thing was the NUS invitationals that i had last saturday on 19 june.

Things didnt really go well on NTU side with much events having DQ. Our obstacle relay, WJ's pet event, 50m manikin carry, the 4x25m manikin relay, my 100m manikin carry with fins, my rope throw were the few things that had the DQ or DNF status. Guess, smth is missing and we have to work on. These caused morale to be all time low but we manage to pull through till the end.

What was a relief was that ACJC which I have a way or another helped to train, gotten 3rd overall in Division B. Although this excludes the record holders and national champs, its a good start for ACJC in the long run. I am happy that at least it turned out well after months of highs and lows with much unhappiness along the way.

Its a sad thing that I have to say gdbye to AC as a trainer.. I had to move on i guess and pass it on to the next batch of willing helpers and I thank Neville for being the one for now. I have really learnt a lot from these bunch of ppl in AC lifeguards.

Moving on, HZ is back and we had a great dinner on tues. Ate some nice Korean food and had great deserts before watching a nice show. Well gotta thank her for the great company. haha.. Now HZ, if you r reading this.. IT IS YOUR TURN TO TREAT ME. hhaha.

Well, went to MBS skypark ytd. It was great!! It was such a nice view and we were treated to a free treat of aerial displays by RSAF!! WE R SO DARN LUCKY. The view is really the best you can get as of now in SG.. although some areas are still nt done yet but the general view from up there is really omph! especially for those who want to take photos.

my photos are in my fb and here are the links:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=708678968&aid=224587&s=0&hash=0b5d35f04cae87a74adb3bec6467460f

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=224590&id=708678968

and here are a few snap shots

selfish

2010-06-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

Been wondering bout my actions lately. It seems that although I may be offering help in a way or two but i m limiting my help to a point it seems that its nt really genuine. I find that I am limiting my help in a way that I do not compromise myself and I believe that I present it in an unfavourable manner.

It wasnt really like this in the past and is it because unconsciously I am protecting myself from being taken advantage of till a point that I seem to be a jerk to others.

My EQ seems to be a little prob. My dad and few gd friends did mention to me. Guess its the rage and the anger that come and go so abruptly.

Some of situation happened today brought out some of these behaviours which reminded me that somehow, i need to sit down and reflect.

Maybe I am thinking too much but I feel that being myself lately seems to be a little problem where I start to offend people in a way or two. Nt very gd but I guess I somehow have to make a little change, at least to the part on controlling or letting go of tt rage and anger within me through other more peaceful means other than thundering my voice when I get frustrated with myself.

Peace of my mind, guess thats what I should achieve now to be clear in my thoughts to have tt little change in me for the better.

Bored

2010-06-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

Humans are never consistent and I am no different. Been running around doing this and doing that for days, weeks, months. When I am doing all those, I complain why cant I get a day's rest at the very least. Now, I do have 1 full day, nth much to do other than packing a bit of my room with no one at home and I am also uncomfortable with that. Weird isn't it?

Lazying ard seems so hard for me and I dunno why. This feels stupid I guess. haha. At least, I get slightly more occupied tonight with more world cup matches to watch n predict.

Its the season for soccer bets, sleepless nights, draggy day at work/studies (work for my case) for these 2 months. All thanks to world cup. haha.. Have my fair share of those as well since world cup is one of the only 2 soccer tournaments that I will watch. The other is Euro series.

As more soccer matches piles up, I slp less and work will start to pile up from tmr onwards.. Wonder how am I going to survive..

Random post for now just to pass time. Oh and NUS invitationals are coming up next sat so the countdown is 6 days.. Hope I can do well or at least to the standard I was 3 yrs ago. Time flies and as that happens, the body starts to feel the downhill trend...

Tired...

2010-06-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tired is the word to describe my current condition over these few days. Guess burnt-out maybe a better word. The main thing is, I dun really feel like I had any holiday at all. Its been alrdy a mth aft exams and I have nt been able to take some time off for myself or to really enjoy a full day with friends and stuff.

Another reason I guess, is due to the constant meetings and trainings at night which leaves me practically only fri nights free. At least for now, this is the first tuesday night I get to spend at home, so hoorray! haha...

Think i really need more slp as i have nt clocked a 7 hr slp for quite a while alrdy and think that can be quite damaging to my body especially when i m doing high intensity activities such as lg trg and running almost 3/4 of the week.

Work has so far been fine and these 2 days, my boss has been rather good to me and nt really throwing me work. Silence before a storm? I dun care, gonna enjoy the moment for now that i have nt much work to do and he dun touch me so long i complete what he wants me to do. Shldnt I be like enthu bout everything and wanting to find more work to do like the past? Guess this kinda attitude is due to the reason that i m burnt out.

Countdown to NUS invitationals has started and its bout 10 days from now in an hr. It also means that she will be back in 10 days. Yeah! haha... cya soon if u r reading this!

In any case, its been 2 years since my last participation in NUS invitationals as a competitor. It feels weird event though i took part last yr as a trainer and team manager for ACJC as well as being a competitor under NTU for nationals. Nervous I guess and this time I am definitely more prepared than the nationals i took part last yr. I seek to do well and hope i can at least get smth for my rope event. Its the unwillingness to know that i missed the medal by 0.6s the last time rd. I am determined somehow to achieve it be it NUS invi or nationals, so i guess, its the last burst for NUS invi and a gd start for nationals.

For now, my eyes feel like closing so badly, so i guess i end off here for now and I look forward for your return and enjoy yrself for the time being. :D Countdown:10days.

dusty,snippets of my life and a sad sad story of my life-tribute to my mother

2010-06-04T20:47:00.006+08:00

Its been almost 3 years since I last posted here. Looking back at this blog brings much memories back.

Much has happened over the last 3 years. I would say its life changing and what had happened through those 3 years have changed my life totally to a point that when I see myself in the mirror or i sit down to think, I just could not find the same me I used to see back in JC or secondary school days.

Early 2008, I entered army, went to BMT and went through some shit and fun but came out tougher and stronger in many ways. I have also somehow fulfilled an ambition since young-to be a soldier. I have signed on and taking the most feasible vocation(Air Engineer) that will some what make sense in what I seek and like doing.

I went on to OCS and had some amazing time. It was tough but I made lots of friends along the way and they were the ones who helped me through the tough process all the way till end of AFST.

During the time I was in OCS, my mum's condition turned for the worst. There were no more avail meds that can help her and the cancer cells were juz spreading. There was once where I received a call from my dad in air wing ops rm which I cannot forget. My dad asked whether me I could go to the hospital. He was in tears. I knew its smth no gd and I manage to rush down to Mt E in time. My mum was having lots of water in her lungs and she could nt breathe. She was stabilised in ICU when i went but it was apparently very bad before i reached.

After that incident, I guess it just went downhill all the way. A week in hospital, thats the first time I see my mum's fighting spirit totally washed out. She told us lots of things and was trying to get us ready to face the inevitable. I cannot never forget the words she told me and of which she told me: "Be strong"

During the week, my mum decided she would go to a hospice. We agreed and we got her to this hospice beside Mt Alvernia Hospital (my birth place). Its a weird feeling that I have never step there after i was born and here i am again after 19 yrs. But this was the place I last spent my time with my mother.

3 weeks, I visited her whenever i booked out and my family will stay over in the hospice with my mum. Finally came my birthday, a friday... I booked out from camp and got home to get stuff b4 getting ther to celebrate with my mom. However, we didnt in the end as she was feeling rather unwell.

Her panting was unusually heavy and it never stopped. By 12am, we knew it was about time. My aunts and grandma came. My whole family was by her side, claiming her down and reassuring her. 2am, there was no choice but to give my mum the morphine. It was then the last time her eyes opened....

I kept on holding her hand talking to her, so did the rest of my family.. She held on somehow and slowly, she claimed her heavy panting down. 7am, finally she took her last breathe and bid farewell to her life of suffering..

At least she was relieved of her pain in this mortal world and going to a better place...

The funeral came and went and my family struggled to continue on with a normal life after my mom's death as she had wanted us to. It was tough but we somehow made it through.

2009 came, I was alrdy halfway into my ALOC course. I have made friends who are also my colleagues.. And at least, I know much of these friendship will stay on for a while.

I finally stepped on the SAFTI parade square again and this time its not for drill competition but for the parade that i was always looking forward to- my comms parade. Before the parade, we were worried that it could be cancelled as it was raining very heavily juz b4. We were relieved when the sch commd told us tt rain or shine, the parade will go on.

The last 10 mins at the FUP was the longest wait and finally the music went on.. Finally it started...

The parade went on well, with a minor error by Jolene who marked our unique parade. There was also a nice sky and a double rainbow as well. It was then that I wished that my mom could be there to help me put on the rank.

Time went by and finally I entered uni. I went to NTU. I went to my hall(hall3) orientation camp and lot of fun and thats where I met a special someone. Sch started and we had great times tgt. However, she left NTU and went on to pursue her dreams overseas. It was sad but I was also happy that she went on to fulfill her dream. The sem ended and I went through my first ever written exam after almost 2 yrs of SAF life.

I went on to visit her and had a great holiday over in Ireland and it was great experience traveling alone. Ireland is really beautiful and its really a place worth visiting although much things were closed down during the xmas season.

Results came out and it was bad. It was only me and my busy schedules as well as excessive fun that I had to blame.

2010 came when I was overseas and it was the first and the most unforgettable experience I had.

After which i focused a lot more on my studies after the IH which I had fun with representing my hall for water polo and winning my first ever gold medal.

At least, the results that came out after my sem 2 exams were at least fine and helped to pull my GPA up a bit.

Life for my family over the past yr and till now has slowly but surely adjusted and returned to normal.

Last sunday was my 21st and I ran my 1st ever marathon to mark it before having a great party in the evening.

I guess, I sorta ran out of things to update but i guess, sitting down here today and thinking. I recounted and relive those moments again. I found that I grew up quite a bit over the span of almost 3 yrs. I believe I have grown stronger and more determined than before. I also believe that the experience I had in this period will see me thru much in my future.

As i consolidate my thoughts here, i do feel emotional bout many things- the past, my love life, studies and so on. But i guess the same words stays- BE STRONG...

Somehow, I believe these words as well as my hardwork and determination will see me through and I will be able to resolve whatever I have to, be able to face whatever I should face. I guess ultimately, these emotions are part and parcel of what makes me stronger and builds me up for the unknown and yet exciting future- good or bad...

Over At Last

2007-11-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

Finally the dreading A levels are over!!!! OK its over for more than a week now. The 4 weeks of exams that drained ended but somehow the holidays doesn't seem to be as exciting as i would have expected. Though i m out almost everyday except for today, most of the time i was going for school lifeguard training, my lesson at the pool and to train myself.

Well at the very least i have done something more fun. The day of last paper, we had BBQ at Joel's place. I would say this gathering of the class was one of the most successful with only 4 missing souls. I spent my time mostly at the pit area chit chatting and joking rd. Somehow, i was the target of their teasing and jokes at certain point in time. In general, i think it was really great to get together with the class again. I wonder are there anymore outings, i doubt the turnout would be good even if there is another one i guess.

Fri was also not bad. I went to a few places within 12 hrs. In the afternoon, Joel, Kiang and Lam invited me to join in their game of badminton. We had some fun and in fact joking around and teasing Lam throughout. Then we went bowling at the country club. My skills are really getting from worse to worst, i couldnt even reach 90. (sobs)
After all these, I met up with Quan Rong to get guitar strings at Swee Lee. We got a ride from his father who fetched us there then fetch me to Yan Lu place after that.
At night, i went over to Yan Lu's place for a while. The guys have not even reach except for kiang when i left his place. I spent my time there reading his comics and chatting with him.

Sat morning i went out wif my family then at night, my family,cousins and aunt went to have jap buffet at fairway country club. The food is not really fantastic but since its a buffet, of course i filled my stomach to the brim. Then we went off to bowl (again). Slightly better this time round where i hit a 109 high in the second and last game.

Yesterday, after the school training, i went taka wif my family to shop. I got a really huge sports bag for NS. I thought it would be fine but when i put it on, i can see that its really huge. At the very least, it will be able to contain all the necessities i need for NS.

Well, as for today and the rest of the days that i didnt mention, i was either at clementi pool, school pool or at home. At home i would spent my time on the guitar (m currently learning canon in d) and also play FF7. Ok the FF7 part was very fun till my com broke down just hours ago. I cant even turn on...

Guess ending here. Next week is prom night. I somehow got mixed feelings bout it. I m looking forward to it and yet hope it dun arrive so soon. Think i would post some of the prom pics nxt time rd.

Half time

2007-11-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

Half time for A levels with 5 more papers to go... yea.. at least half gone...
papers went by with 2 of them uncertain, 2 of them ok while the other 2 being confident..
it really seem quite bad huh... haiz..
now have a look at this video.

Prelims Ovr Here comes the real thing

2007-10-06T13:35:00.000+08:00

Well, first i thank the very few visitors here. haha, in fact i think there are only like 3 that i know off.

Prelims are over long ago, i m juz lazy to write about it here. It seems tt now, prelims are nothing as compared to how afraid we were before it started. A levels are approaching, i guess its the same cycle of feelings that we are experiencing now. In any case i try to be optimistic look forward to the day the A levels are over.

The results i got seem bad to me, maybe not to the others but i did not do as well as promos last year, which apparently show that i did not improve but have a drop instead.
Guess its a wake-up call to all. I have to re-look into my concepts and take care of the careless errors which took away at least half of the marks i lost.

Everyone is studying more than what they used to before. I admit i m also one of them and i think it is really tiring to do so. Really wonder how some can studying for more than 3 hours straight without having to take any short breaks. Dun the mind feel tired and unable to absorb anything? Sometimes i feel tt its crazy to do so. An advise here to all studying, that is to do quality work over quantity. I seriously believe this is the case cos we have just too much to do in too little time.

I guess i would end here. All the best to those taking exams! I m off and out! Most likely back only after the A's.

Prelims are really near

2007-07-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

The prelims are really drawing close with exactly 2 weeks and 1 more day before its start. Everyday seemed to be quite a mad drive to study and to revise.

Seriously i got to get some breathing space soon, at least let off some steam, a bit too much chionging than usual already have some damages on me. I got nth much to say in this post except tt i finally got my photos taken during competition and i will post them soon if i can. Well good luck to all and ya, i placed a countdown to remind all taking A levels of our ultimate goal.

The memories shall stay

2007-07-01T15:14:00.000+08:00

The whole holiday we have trained so hard, swam so hard and pull the manikin so hard. All these hard work finally paid off when we participated in the NUS Invitationals Lifesaving Competition. I can really say it was quite memorable.

Just for your info, the competition comprised of events as follows:
-200m obstacle swim and 4x50m obstacle relay
(where there are fencing placed at 12m at both ends of pool n we have to swim under it)

-50m manikin carry and 4x25m manikin carry
(where we are supposed to tow a manikin fully filled with water for 25m keeping its face above water at all times)

-100m manikin carry with fins
(we tow the manikin for 50m after a 50m swim)

-12m Line Throw relay
(where we throw a rope n pull our partners at 12m mark back within 30secs)

-4x50m medley relay
(where 1st swimmer swims without fins, 2nd swimmer with fins, 3rd swimmer with rescue tube and 4th swimmer with rescue tube n 3rd swimmer with fins and holding on to tube,kicking)

-100m rescue medley
(where 1 has to swim 50m then swim 17.5 m underwater before bringing up the fully filled manikin n tow it back to starting pt)

-100m manikin tow with fins
(where 1 has to swim 50m with fins n rescue tube n tow a manikin that is half filled using the tube for 50m)

We performed quite well amongst the strong opponents from NUS, NTU, Water-Sapians, SP,Ngee Ann Poly, TP, Swimming Teachers Association, Sports Eagles, MJC and Stingray Club.

We did not win much for the competition except for Xiang Un getting 3rd for his 200m obstacle swim. Overall, all of us broke our personal best timings which was a great achievement and managed to keep within 2 DQs for each team cos the rules are quite stringent.

Well for me, i took part in the obstacle relay, manikin relay, medley relay, line throw relay and 50m manikin carry. My team, team B was DQ for the obstacle and medley relays. Other than that, we out-performed ourselves as compared to previous timings.
Sad to say is tt my highest chance of winning, the line throw got a 4th placing losing only a mere 0.6 sec to the 3rd place. It seems quite sad. In any case, all we achieved yesterday were all the effort of our competition coach Jeremy. Seriously, i m really grateful to him and really thank him for the effort put in to train us and the trust and believe he had in us.

Well, we also handed over the operations of the CCA to the J1s yesterday. It seems quite sad to again leave another CCA since sec school. Finally it is going to be the mad rush for the A levels. Well, good luck for mugging and finally the As to all J2 out there.

End of 1st wk of June Holidays

2007-06-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

Just as i was talking about how busy the 3 weeks would have been, its already over! Like wow again. Time never fail to amaze me. I went through school and first week of holidays attending the course, coming home late at night. It has somehow become a routine for me and now i wonder how i am going to adjust back to before.

Course is finally over with the presentations on monday and wednesday while the water skills and theory test was yesterday. Minor to moderate screw-ups here and there. Hope i can pass the course so i can do the attachment. The thing is i only know the result two weeks later starting count this coming monday.

I practically wasted my 1st week of holidays, doing not much of hw, revision. I feel quite guilty about it and i made it worse by spending this weekend off as well. I gotta catch up real soon before its too late.

Today went out if juncheng and joey. It is really long since i got to see joey. He seems fine to me but sometimes i wonder if he is hiding something from us. Well, went school today to help in the J1s Lifesaving 1,2,3 test b4 meeting up with them for pool. Then dinner b4 me n juncheng went to the pc show.

PC show was really disappointing with a lot of things missing, no creative, no apple, no compac and a few more no. Waste of my time to go for the show. Well, at least both of us had a great time chit chatting as we walked.

Missing more than 3 weeks of bball alrdy n quite a few of them asking bout me liaoz. This coming friday i gotta join back the gang to play.

The Busy 3 weeks

2007-05-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

Well, i m in the end of the first week of this frenzy period of end may where i have to juggle school work, competition training and the course. Its seriously tiring for me and i guess its the same for the other 2, Xiang Un and Jovia.

It may seem really busy, but somehow i managed to keep up with my work. It seems the rush to complete tutorials 2 weeks ago was worth it. At least now, i can have more rest and time for myself instead of using it totally for studies.

I have been out almost the whole weekend. Yesterday was training till afternoon period and going to my grandma's place at night which totally took away my saturday. Today was slightly better with the swimming at clementi pool and the last minute YEC meeting due to Darren having troubles finding my number.

NAPFA was two weeks ago. Yes, i got SILVER again... it sucks. A 24 pt silver with 2 cm more for standing board jump to reach GOLD. Guess i m still quite lousy comparatively to the physical training that i normally receive.

The course still carries on for the next two week. I can now see the high standard of the course. The instructor for the course is good to us and he seeks to revamp the organisation in which i support his actions. This made me feel that i shld put in even more effort to make sure i really pass the course.

Guess i got to go do some other stuff. Holidays are coming but it seems that this holiday is just another study break. So i think they shld juz rename it a study break and not HOLIDAYS cos we are not really going for holidays.

Tiring weekend.

2007-04-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

What a tiring weekend it was. I m totally drained of all energies i have. Gotta have more bananas. I used up all the energies i stored over these three days all through tiring physical activities. Let's see, friday after school i went bballing with zhi long in sch. Not really that tiring but it did used up some form of energy. The time we had in the court was quite fun though. In fact, its always fun to play bball.

Yesterday, saturday was the TAS Inter-school Biathlon. Went out early in the morning round 9 plus to meet Xiang Un and the rest at eunos to grab some bite b4 Adeline's mom kindly sent all of us to East Coast Park where the event was being held. The actual thing was in the afternoon rd 2pm but we were there round 1230pm to prepare and warm up. The currents were quite strong yesterday, in fact, it caused the line marking the swim route to be out of place till we have to swim from buoy to buoy. The swim part was really the worst. I started off fine till this guy kept on blocking and kicking me throughout the whole thing. What's worse is that the waves were really strong and its really tough to even hold out. I got out of water as one of the last, maybe the last, i don't know. Quite bad but I still carried on. The first few hundred metres of the 5km run was the next toughest after the swim. I felt my lungs bursting any moment. Its only after the 1st km that i got used to the breathing and managed to hold out till the end. I think i m the last of all i guess, given that there are only 20 individuals and 13 relay teams in my wave. At the very least i am happy that i completed the thing. One happy thing is that one of ACJC's team made it to 3rd place for the relay which comprise of one of the swimmers and one of the crossers. After the whole thing, we the lifeguards and xiang un's friend went to Cathay for some sinful and yet delicious food, Ben's and Jerry's ice-cream. Thinking of those ice-cream, i m still drooling.*slurps*

Today is also tiring for me, i slept for 8 hrs since last night and i even took 2 naps of an hr each, one in the morning and 1 in the afternoon after i got home. I actually went to play badminton with my family after lunch today, which, in fact, drain me out even more instead of me resting. That explains the second nap. I am still feeling tired, gosh, i think it has been really long since i exerted so much. I got to train more i guess, my stamina has really dropped and NAPFA is in 1 and half weeks!

Got to rush homework and rest early. Hope it will be a great week in school this coming week.

Lost?

2007-04-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

PW results are released earlier today. It was sure a big woo-ha for the J2s all over Singapore and not just us. Everyone around me seem very excited to know about their grades, the fruits of their hard work over 8 months. For me, i want to know the results but i did not feel any anxiety, excitement or anything, maybe its due to my over-confidence. At the very least the scoldings, strictness of Miss Lim Oon Hua, our repeated complains, our overnight burn-outs doing WR and jokes within the group paid off. All members of my group received an A! Most people in Ms Lim's class did well and bagged an A. Somehow, we still have to thank her despite her strictness and sometimes unreasonable demands.

Life lately seems to be really rocky, i feel like i m swimming out there in the sea, trying to keep my head out of water while going towards my goal. Emotional roller-coaster ride may also be another word to describe. Somehow, i seem to put too much things in my head. Zhi Long seems to be right, i shld really relax a bit. However, i find that i m really not myself lately. I have lost my concentration in a lot of things that i do. This seems really bad, its like when u play and have fun, u think bout work and during work u think otherwise and slack. In the very end, nothing seems to be done. Some dilemma going here isn't it? Growing up somehow dun seem to be as easy as many other may say.

Competition for us lifeguards is also coming up in end june and we are already training hard for it. At least i m able to contribute in a way or another though i m not in the first team. Gotta really admit that i m juz not tt fast and good. at the very least i m going to do well in my rope throw, I will meet my target somehow.

I found this quite inspiring quote from a friend's blog and it is:
Getting ahead in a difficult profession requires avid faith in yourself. That is why some people with mediocre talent, but with great inner drive, go much further than people with vastly superior talent.

Somehow, i agree with what it says. Think bout it.

Over

2007-03-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

Term exams are over last week after a week of holidays spent at home and library mugging. Yes the papers are indeed over. SO ARE MY RESULTS! It is quite frustrating to perform so badly after much hard work put on. Maybe i m juz not studying smart enough. What makes me even angrier is that people around me who are usually slacking around performed very well. This really makes me even more motivated to do better. So here i come SSP if i really had to.

After the papers on thurs last week, the guys in class n i went for movie and games. We were the first few to watch Mr Bean's movie. The movie was really hilarious, the best parts were Mr Bean ate the whole lobster(tt looks like a huge prawn) along with its shell and head, the part where he caused a man to kill himself by jumping into a river, the part where he cause a director to blow himself up and the part of the clarkson clay film. Though lame, the movie really made us laugh our heads out. After the movie, we went LAN to play CS then go for pool before calling it a day. Not bad, it was quite fun.

This few days are quite fine except for the moments where we got our papers back. Training yesterday was bit slack with more focus on skills and i m more or less selected for the rope throw event( oh yeah!) at least there is a way i can contribute cos i m not really fast enough in the pool. Talking bout pool, i also signed up for the swim meet. Guess i m so gonna get thrashed in the pool. Well i just join for fun since its my last year in AC.

think i would also post 2 music videos of songs that i find not bad by high and mighty color (jap band)

2007-03-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

Life is really like the music and songs that we listen to practically everyday of our lives. It is at times fast paced, at times slow, at times happy and at times sad and emotional. The past month seems exactly like this. Work can suddenly pile up till i cannot really handle and sometimes i seem so free that i wonder wad else i can do. My emotions have also been fluctuating between the two extremes.

The chinese new year this year was slightly different and boring compared to previous years. Due to some family problems, my parents actually didn't do much visiting this year. The first day and second day of new year, we were meeting the exact same faces from my mother's side relatives except for the difference in location. In fact the activity wasn't much different were we were on the gambling table playing blackjack for the 2 days. The only slight difference is that we went to watch Ghost Rider on the first day. We were supposed to watch Protege but due to the presence of my 'dear' sister and the other 2 cousin that can be very annoying at times, we have no choice but to settle for that child's film.

Valentines this year seemed slightly different from previous years too. I received flowers from the J1 lifeguards' Juniors and chocs from a few people too. Really maloo not to give them back anything at all. Flowers, chocs and balloons were all around the school tt day and everyone wasn't really in schooling mood. Somehow valentines in AC seem very different from other colleges especially from SA which i was previously in for first 3 months. The rest of the day other all those mentioned were like any other day except for the part where 3 of my other friends join me for gym at my place. All the deprived four of us spent the rest of the wednesday evening period gyming, crapping and brooding over the hated day of our lives.

Terms are around the corner. Time table for terms is quite weird. Tmr is GP paper but the rest of the papers are the week after the holidays. It so crap, the whole holidays will be gone liddat to study for terms. Training for lifeguards have also intensified due to preparations for competition. Unfortunately, i missed the past 2 trainings due to sickness. Really hope i can be back asap or i m going to be lagging a whole lot behind.

Randomisation

2007-01-31T20:20:00.000+08:00

Another month gone like that. January went by and it seems i have not really achieved much but i screwed up my GP tests already. The past 2 seem so normal and it seems the daily life have already caused me to become a mugger. I m starting to mug at this time of the year. Maybe it should be this way or maybe its too early that i can suffer a burnout. I really hope i can sustain at least at this rate till the mid year and peak the next half of the year.

Been training myself a bit lately but instead of performing better i drop in my standard especially pull-ups and running which i have been doing every few days. It may just be me being too tired but i do not really think this is the case. I really gotta train and i advise u guys out there of my age should take this yr to train ur physical as well to prepare for the next yr.

9/2 to 11/2 is the class chalet and i hope it can be quite successful and not like the so called "class outing" in december where only 7 guys and 1 girl turned up when there is a class size of 26. Hope all of us can enjoy it before the Lunar New Year as it stands as a benchmark to the tough days of working very hard ahead. Thus i m not really looking forward to new yr this time round. However, i think i shld still go face it somehow and conquer it than to be defeated by the stress and increasing workload.

My progress with the new skill has been only ok. i m still trying to learn the basics, not really inclined to such area i guess but its good to know it at least so u guys may just be surprise when i display some form of "talent" that u ppl wld not expect the boring CK to have. haha.

Half of Jan alrdy?

2007-01-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

Here i am again blogging. Time seriously flies. Real fast, faster than the winds, quicker than the falls. Half a month have already went by. Seriously, i haven really done much in this past 2 weeks of school. Everyday seems to be slacking day it seems, i have not been in the mood for studying. Maybe that is good, leave the peak of studies for the last if u know what i mean.

The first week, i went back to my secondary school after school to help out in my ex-CCA again. It felt real good just to even step into NHHS again. Its just a pity that i wasnt able to watch the performance my juniors put up on the sat tt week as it clashes with AC's CCA day too.

Lifeguard trainings started like before just that we have some new members. According to Xiang Un the number of people who came in was already better wad they had last yr during the first 3 months. In fact to date only 10 out of 43 who signed up on sat's CCA day turned up. However, this 10 seems quite keen, at least from my point of view. 2 of my juniors from NHHS were also from this 10.

For teachers, i had most of my teachers unchanged. I had a change for my physics and economics teachers. They seem to be better the the previous 2 hope they can really guide us through this last leg of the race to the A levels.

I m also learning new skills currently. M not going to write bout it here, ask me if u people want to find out.

Tomorrow

2007-01-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

Another year passes by so fast that one can fail realising that 365 days had already got their places in history books and records. The year of 2006 went by with me knowing more people, making new friends, learning new things. The following shall be some of the bigger events tt i still rmb thru yr 2006:

Jan to March - Stepped into SAJC to begin my next part of my learning journey as a JC student
- Got to know people in 06S07 in SAJC
- Got to know 'bench club' people

March - Got O level's results
- Got posted to ACJC
- Got into 1SB8
- Know even more people
- Realised i got many friends from NHPS and NHSS in ACJC
- Went into AC Lifeguards
- Started Bronze Cross with lifeguard seniors
- 4/9 2nd chalet

April to June - Studying and trying to get used to the life in AC
- Got the craze in playing Silkroad Online
- Love Communion Event by CYEC
- Band Concert
- CO concert

Jul - Terms exam
- NUS Lifesaving Competition (Invitationals)

Aug to Sept - Tests
- Timekeeping at National Lifesaving Competition
- Clementi Bowling Competition
- Clementi Lantern night

Oct - Promos
- AC games
- Playing bridge and big-2 almost everyday in school
- Homerun for PW

Nov - Chinese A levels
- OP
- Start of the long and painful holidays with loads of hw
- Bballing almost every friday since after promos
- Went to Thailand and fell sick there

Dec - Band Concert
- Ran 10 km for the first time in my life at the Standard Chartered Marathon
(saw many ppl i noe there)
- Spread the Joy@ Clementi ( abit of a failure though)
- Stay over at Xiang Un's 2nd house and had vodka for 1st time in my life
- Finished 95% of my hw
- End of this really long holidays

Well the new year's here already and tmr is the start of my JC2 life and the final race towards A levels. I do have some resolutions/ wishes too:

Study hard and get good results
Work hard to win her heart
Family well-being

My resolutions and wishes r really very little so i do hope in achieving them. Well it seems that this is a rather long post here. Guess i shld stop. Really hope that every1 out there will have a great year ahead!

Its snowing but not here in singapore

2006-12-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

Finally its christmas. Yea finally, which means the end of the year is in days. The battle with A levels shall continue. However, not this week, i m still gonna enjoy the very last bit of my time to enjoy and play.

Today's bit different from the usual Christmas from past years. In the past, we usually stay home and do nth during this day (yes, in fact we dun really celebrate it) . We only cut a cake juz to celebrate my mum's birthday. Well, its totally different for the 25 dec 2006. My relatives came down and we have some sort of party and gathering. Had some fun and it seemed so different from b4.

The CIP the other day went on smoothly with some minor hiccups. Generally it was still ok. We had fun time baking the cookies on thurs and tryin them out ourselves. Not bad actually. The party for old folks was quite a success. Most of the old folks were so happy after that and even the volunteers had fun together with them.

My life seem so boring somehow so in this coming week, other than tryin to finish up those dreadful and disgusting hw, i m going to have lots of fun and pack my week up with outings.

And yar, I still want to wish every1 Merry X'mas!! esp to my closest friends, family and the special 1.

Seniors' dinenr

2006-12-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

Last night was really joyous and happy, with us having a great dinner with our Lifeguards' seniors. Quite a few of us J1-going-to-J2s went for the dinner, and its only 4 of us, 2 guys and 2 girls. Now, where's the rest, especially our 2 presidents? Well every1 is either really busy, overseas or having OGL camps. Our dear Xiang Un went Sri Lanka, really wonder did he make it back. haha. Jonny is on multiple trips overseas, lucky isn't he?

Well, dinner was not bad with us craping a whole lot, in fact it was the dynamic duo of Jac and Lynnette who made the dinner an entertaining one. Jokes and lame jokes went on and on till we really couldnt stand much of them. In all it was a real good dinner, however, i wonder when we could really see them again. They really treated us well earlier this yr, i m gonna miss all the fun Andy and Mark actually provided.

Tmr is going to be the baking of cookies for the old folks' party on friday morning. Hope we wun mess up too much.

LOng Time No Post

2006-12-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

Wow it seems that it has been a really long time since i wrote anything here and it seems so quiet here too.

A few days after the previous post, i went to bangkok. In fact it was from the 25 to 27. The trip started well but the main day of outing and shopping wif my family, aunts and cousins, i fell ill. Its quite irritating and i felt that i wasted my trip there. I only thing that i managed to enjoy was the city tour. Got a few nice shots which i will post another time if i m able to.

The rest of the 2 weeks was quite dreadful for me. I practically went on an emotional roller coaster. The feeling of guilt of not doing any work came in when i play but when i went to do some work, i just cannot concentrate. Thats only the first problem. The next thing that caused me problems is the affairs of the heart. Its the sickening feeling of missing someone. I really hate all these emotions sometime i feel that i rather be a robot with no emotions at all.

Only 2 highlights was last friday's band concert and sunday's marathon. The band concert last friday was really good but its the length of 3 hrs that put some of us off. Kai Yan being tired after canoe training went to the concert but she dozed off after intermission. Yi Li went like when is it going to end.

Sunday i went for the Singapore Marathon. NO i didnt run 42.195km. I only did the team race of 10km with my father, sis, my 2 cousin and one of my cousin's bf. Not bad for us tt we got 74 out of 109 teams even when 4 of them walked. Only my n my cousin ran all the way. The funny happened was when i mistaken the last 500m for last 50m and started to sprint a bit but when its really the last 50m i couldnt carry on with the same pace and have to slow down a little. And i saw quite a few ppl i knew throughout my run. I saw my coach there on duty at the first aid post, kai yan as road marshal, some seniors who took part and some of my ex-NH mates there running.

Well thats it for now. I think i talked too much that people would want to read.

sickening holidays

2006-11-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

Argh!! Frustrating and i feel like venting all this rage inside me on something!! I juz simply hate holidays!!! yes HATE!! especially holidays that do not seem like holidays!!!

The past 3 weeks went by and i achieved nothing at all!! I just hate this feeling in me. I agree it feels so good to have holidays cos u can have fun, go out and so on but when u have to go back to school a few days a week and having this freaking pile of homework that dont seem to finish it juz dun feel right.

I feel good when i am having fun but when i m at home, no outings, no nothing, it juz feels so lonely and this stupid feeling of gulity of not doing homework comes up. However, once u touch the paper or see that darn question, u dun feel like doing anymore.Why? cos i need companion when i do work at times, at least i can ask when i dunno compared to my parents who juz say they dunno everytime i ask.

Its this contradictory feeling in me that i hate so much! 3 and a half weeks gone i have no progress in work, i m stoning at home when there is no training and i dunno how to carry on this holiday when my schedule gets busy in doing CIP stuffs.

Ok think i should stop complaining in here. Anyway no one in this world like to hear complains especially my complains and no one visits here anyway!

2006-11-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

Gosh!! i haven been updating for more than a week!! Yeah, many things happened the past week. WELL the main highlight of the past week was OP!!!

OP is finally over!! YES!! and my group actually did better than our own practices.. felt so good after the OP. And thx a lot to Puay Bing, our group managed to surprise the audience and yes including the examiners with our little blank presentation where we made some big woo-ha to start of the presentation... Somehow the introduction i did was totally tough. Y? there are some parts tt i have to be thicked skinned to say certain things to "boast" about myself.. Not really my style. But yea, we did well as a group.

After OP a few of us went for some ice-cream at daily scoop.. Its sorta my first time going into an ice-cream shop juz to sit down and eat ice-cream.. Not bad.. and i can say the ice-cream was fantastic..

Training somehow went by as usual.. somehow i seem to be getting bored of training.. cos i kept asking myself why do i have to go for training at times.. I wanna learn new things or train but it seems that i am not doing these two but only to appear at trainings juz to guide those two. Well gotta improvise and change the training a bit so that it can be more interesting while still able to have every1 to learn something.

I also broke record last week by going for pool sessions 2 times a week.. it seems that i m going to go bankrupt juz by playing pool.. gotta find something better to do.

I started the most hated holiday homework too... It juz dont really feel right to do hw especially when its holiday and i am all alone studyin on my own... at least i need some company. haiz...

OH YAR!! i tried applying for SSC lifeguard at Jurong East Swimming complex last week. Only to find out tt they dont accept ppl below 18 when i went down to fill in the application form... REALLY SUCK!!!! its like 1 more mth away from my 18 yr!!!!

this entry is sorta too long but i dont care whether any1 reads it cos not many ppl visit too.. haiz... well going to change the skin again... think i found a more suitable 1.

Emotion

2006-11-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

Well another week that is going to be over soon. This first week of holiday seem so wasted due to me pure laziness. I have been slacking and playing com tts all, though i do some occasional studying and homework.

There wasnt any post for a week cos there seemed to be nothing much to blog about. The week went by with chinese lessons and training since monday, nothing much really happened except tt i went on an emotional roller coaster due to some personal reasons. Well tmr is chinese A lvls. Here i wanna wish all out there taking chinese tmr all da best (since some dun believe in luck) and i also wanna say the same to those J2s taking their A lvls. Yes its their homerun now, hope they get what they wished to get for their results and in a year's time it will be my turn.

Well nothing else to say, gotta go re- read chinese again. Gotta do well and not throw face if u noe wad i mean.

Holidays

2006-10-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

Finally it came. Ya the last day of sch for the sch year. To be frank, i m not like the rest who always look forward to this day. I hated these last day. It mean at least for me tt i will be alone most of the time at home doing hw n only more hw. Cos frankly speaking, no one wants to invite me out or to accept my invitation except for the usual few.

Yes today is also results day. Yar i agree now that my results were not bad but i juz can't seem to cheer up. After the results collection, everything i do was really not in flow wif my intentions if u noe wad i mean. First thing was that training was cancelled. Its like so long we didnt have proper training already and sorta missed it. Well maybe u guys other may think otherwise. Next was the GPF rush den the class T prob. Haiz...

The rest of the day mas made even mroe gloomy due to the rain. Yes, i must first thank the rain which clear the haze and smoke but it also seem to bring away my joy. Seriously i just dun really like rainy days.

Well gotta plan my holidays now or i end up stoning all da way thru. At least i will get to improve on my sch work.

Results

2006-10-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

Feeling a bit nervous and worried this mornin as today is the papers checking day. The whole day i was a bit off the usual self as i m very of afraid of retaining in J1. The 5 period break that i was supposed to cool myself down by playing bridge wif my classmates turned out to be OP preparations in the end. Quite frustrating and in the end, we chiong for the 5 periods and pon phy lect just for playing cards.

When we were playing, we were like sitting and playing ther so openly in front of the concourse area. Teachers walked by and we have to hide our cards. In the end we shifted down the steps further just to carry on playing cards. ok, my luck for cards today was so-so only, worse than usual in fact. Lost in all Big 2 games that i would win usually argh!

The rest of the day passed and it was results and paper checking. I was quite surprised with some of my scores. I was quite lucky to pass all subjects. Yes, i passed physics and GP. All by stroke of luck. Wad madde me frustrated was the maths paper which was the second paper after chinese that was 1 mark away from the next grade, A. Looked thru the paper and i had myself to blame for those stupid and careless errors.

Generally i am quite happy for the results but i think i could have done better. Really have to catch up in the holis.

2006-10-17T18:03:00.000+08:00

Finally its training again! But without even entering the pool at all. toopid haze!! Had theory for the training with most of the guys being more engrossed in Rui Hon's Battlefield 2 on his laptop. Well, slight difference in the resuscitaions and it seem that i need some more time to get used to it.

PW is in full swing now. We r really rushing for time ot bind our WR by tmr and hand in by thurs. We are alos rushing to complete the OP preparations by this week cos we have to have practice sessions nxt wk starting from mon morning. ARGH!! bit frustrating.

Its quite a blow for me these few days to be bz in PW only and got commented by a few ppl. ok these ppl( not to mention names, not very nice) told me bout problems in my character and attitude. i really thank them for the comments but i m now in dilema on how to solve these issues. haha.. feel bit bad in me now.. a bit of guilt too. I feel it too, there is something wrong in my character and personality that some people just hate it. how to solve it is really some big issues and these comments sort of affected me for a few days now. gotta find an ans soon. haiz... ok ppl, if there is more prob u find in me plz say it. haha.. wun mind... problem is how i have to solve them...

LOSE!

2006-10-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

Wow really a long day today. Real long for me at least. The class fought so hard in street bendy and basketball. It's really nice to see that everyone playing put in all their efforts though they are tired. Really grateful to them.

Street bendy was a smooth trip to the finals. The first match was so close that we had a draw and we had a penalty shootout. Maybe its because we lack of the star play Pearly. haha. Felt quite happy that i made the critical penalty to draw the penalty shootout after 3 shots where its sudden death. The other game was easy. Finals was totally screwed. We were just not as good. SB11 actually got hockey players from SA6 adn some other classes. They were simply too good, we were totally thrashed. It maybe because all of them were tired due to previous street bendy matches or the matches against SC1 in the second bball match today.

Basketball was a smooth in the first match with not much challenge but from quarter finals onwards, its totally different. It was quite taxing to play against SC1. The guys were good especially the guy in the blue FBT pants. Darius and the rest couldn't really catch up with him and got me to guard him instead. Really tough. I spent my rest of the match just to guard him. Finally we won that match by 10 pts. For semi-finals against SA5, it was really tough cos its partially due to every1 being to tired to continue. We actually had the street bendy finals and go for the bball match straight after. They were really fast. The match was super fustrating. I played the first half and 7 mins in the second half. Yan Lu our star was super tired. He was subbed out and in again in the second half for the final push. But we still lose by 10 points. Jian Rong those guys were really good. Really blame myself for being too short and jumping not high enough. There were so many shots that were made in front of me. I was 'burned' so many times!! gotta train to jump higher! Really sad to lose another match straight after the street bendy match. Everyone was so depressed. Furthermore there were so many ppl supportin my class. Really sorry to those supporters as well. Hope Yan Lu is fine. He wasnt really smiling much after that game. He was just too sad to lose 2 critical matches in the same afternoon.

Well, AC games is over, we won nothing at all. But i think everyone in the class gained by getting to know one another more and there is greater bonding within the class. And through this period we really saw the true colours of certain people and the true abilities of certain people. Again just wana thank all my classmates for giving their best in the games whether playing or cheering on for the players.

The games

2006-10-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

Wow, AC games today. So shiok to be playing again. ya thats the word to describe it. It was generally fun. My class took part in basketball, street bendy, captain's ball, frisbee and water bomb. Really it was a lot of fun.

Ok start from the best score of all games. Its basketball. We thought we were quite lousy today, but somehow we managed to thrashed the other team 23 to 9. WOOO YEAH!!! All thanks to the slient killer puay bing. She practically for the whole match juz camp under opponent's basket and wait for our fast break. Something bad did happened during the match. We actually played against AA2. This stupid and idiotic girl just wack my specs of my face when i tried to get back the ball she stole. In the end, she screamed and wack. WTH!! The ref was like so blur, in the first place cannot determine where we r scoring, still give possession over to them. It is SUPPOSED TO BE A TECHNICAL FOUL! -10 for AC ref here. More bad stuff about ref is about to come also.

ok for captain ball we sadly lost and street bendy we were so lucky to have pearly and joanne to score the 2 goals to seal the victory. And also thanks to Yan Lu for the spectacular save. haha.

Water bomb we advanced somehow, but i was not there. Frisbee was the best in all. We walked over the first match den advance easily to the semi finals. Shafiq like gave his all though he was fasting. Really tiring for him. Then came SC3, the team that was playing quite rough though i have to admit that they are good. We were chasing all da way. they played really rough. Real rough. One of the worst was when this stupid guy come tackle me when we actually scored. ok its like this, i managed to get the frisbee to score the point within the box area but this stupid fella came banging into me to tackle me a few seconds after i caught the frisbee. After that i fell and he somehow still stepped to my already injured toes with a bleeding toe nail. Furthermore it was NOT COUNTED!!!! -50 for that stupid guy and -30 for the ref. another stupid thing happened during the match. SC3 was so rough and constantly came into body contact with us. It was at around the last 3 mins then tt stupid ref say, " Hey people! No Body Contact!" super fustrating and Darius could't hold it anymore and scolded the ref. I sub out to rest and in again at the last 2 mins to manage to score the last 2 goals for the class to make it a 9-6 lost. Poor fellas. We played so hard and yet we lost furthermore there is a stupid class who nearly allowed SC3 to walkover for finals!!! -30 for the class and another -30 for ref.

Total in all we still had fun. But AC ref a lot of them CMI so total is -70 for them!! Hope tmr we can win for street bendy and have some hope in bball. And most important of all NO LOUSY REF WITH NO MUCH UNDERSTANDING OF THE RULES!!! ESP BASKETBALL AND FRISBEE!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-08T09:19:00.000+08:00

OMG i really cannot believe it, i finished PROMOS!!! ok not really, only left 1 more SPA.. right juz dun care, study for it on mon night.. yar tts it... Anywae i m already enjoying myself.... Feels so light in fact.

The past 2 days i have been having so fun, it could even been better if not for the stupid haze. Straight after papers on fri, i rushed home to change and rushed out to have the usual bball sessions with my buddies. Got there playing without dinner and when all of them arrived and we started our usual match, we find that it was rather hazy but we carried on. Rd 8pm we have to stop totally cos we cannot even breathe properly. OK, stupid haze again. In the end we chatted for an hr plus and watching those idiots who play soccer at basketball court with their girlfriends playing with candles in such a hazy day where PSI in the west at the period could be more than 120.

Yesterday was better, real better cos my buddiees came down to my place for a swim. Poor jit hao, he cannot even step out of house cos PSI is 130 and his parents forbidded him to go out. The rest of us carried on swimming and playing ball in pool without him.. haha... really poor thing jit....

Last night, i went to some lantern festival event with my family memebers and cousins. The festival event was like a food fair.. i went there so hungry at 8 den after like 15 mins, i was alrdy very full. All the food was so nice.. real nice.

Well, now the play time should be over, cos my WR haven settle yet... Yar, sighzzzz. Gotta finish it soon...

Unoffical last day of Promos

2006-10-06T10:20:00.000+08:00

Finally there is only 1 major paper left. Yes i say fianlly. ITS really been a long week. Super long for me and maybe for quite a lot of ppl out there. Hope i can do well in today's paper cos i have been preparing for it for quite some time now. In fact i may have done the most preparations for chem. Really really hope can do well, at least to cover up my loses for physics.

Yesterday, one of those real rare days that i really sit down for more than 2 hours studying. I went ot the library with clovis. A lot was done there and i covered what i needed to or at least what i think i need.

Tonight will finally be BBALL AGAIN!!!!!! Oh yes finally after 1 month of not hitting the court and shooting hoops. Really feel my hands itching to play. This shall be my very motivation for today to do well. Yes go in for the paper and throw all tt i know in(practically just wack). Den off i go to my favourite place with my ball and my buddies.

So chem here i come, u r getting down!

Screwed

2006-10-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

Found a new meaning of screwed after today's paper... Physics one of my better papers turned out to be the worst so far!! Felt quite fine when i started doing but things get worse once i skipped the very last part of the first question in paper 2. Subsequent questions have blanks here n there. what actually made things worse was the heavy downpour outside the badminton hall. Super noisy when i was trying to come up with a solution of the question that i got stuck in. After the paper, everyone was also complaining, except for Joel. He said that the whole paper was smooth, pro isnt he?

I felt better after lunch when i reminded myself that there are just 3 more papers to go with 2 pracs n chemistry. I also feel much better after reminding myself at least i done my best and the previous papers were quite fine.

Things seem to get boring now as i only have chemistry to study. I studied for tmr's prac n left alkenes to go for this fri but there are like 3 more days including today to friday's paper. Furthermore, i got thursday free, really wonder how should i pass my time other than chem n more chem...

This blog still seem like bit no life, maybe cos i myself look boring... hope this blog wun be as dead as the previous one..

Promos week

2006-10-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

Feel so relieved after the GP n econs paper on Fri. Felt like the whole promos is over, however, there is still 1 more wk to go for the main papers! Tmr is maths n chinese, hope i do well... hope.. haha.. n gd luck to u ppl out there having promos..

First Post

2006-09-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

Wow seems like i m going to start blogging again after like 9 mths of closing down my previous blog....